So I'm waiting to go into town for Lunch with Sarah, which is exciting because the last time I saw her was before Freshers week, way back when.
We're going to go to Eco, if that interests any of you, which it probably will, because if you're reading this your obviously interested enough in me to care about what I had for lunch.
I'm going to do my top ten highlights of 2015 because maybe when I get older I'll forget how liberating of a year it was and I won't be able to remember just how free I actually was.
Ready?
Here we go:
Okay so these are probably in no particular order from like my favourite down. Oh, I'll do them according to the Calendar, that makes more sense, cool.
Here we go #2:
January. On the 7th of January my favourite little ginger was born, ten days early. Sarah got the baking bug before she went in to have him so for the first week of 2015 all we ate was like cakes and buns and things. The house was so warm for the whole month because he slept in the sitting room during the day, it was great. Hard to believe his little face is almost one! I love him dearly, even if he does bite me while I read to him.
February. Hands down my highlight of February was my 18th birthday. There's nothing really more that needs to be said. Different circumstances I guess. But I was, and am still, so thankful for everyone that actually made the journey the whole way out to BallyG for us. Cool.
March. My favourite moment of March was getting my first ever A1 in English. It was fiction, the one about the kiss. I read it in the first ever writers bloc that you went to, all the way back in September. Still to date it is probably the best piece of work you've ever produced.
-April has no highlights because I was quite sad and quite stressed-
May. Okay, May was hella emotional. Between signing year books and days of art practicals I managed to survive and still look great while you did it. In reality I definitely looked like shit, but that's not important now. My highlight of May was grad night. Even though I cried a lot and made an idiot out of myself it was okay because grad night was the first night that all 252 of us celebrated being a team or whatever. Shout out to Ben Clarke for looking after my sorry ass, another one of the things I'll never be able to make up to you.
-June definitely has no highlights, even though it was filled with laughter and stuff-
July. My favourite day in the whole year probably, let alone just July, was the 24th. This was the day that Fran and Colum got married. The entire day was just absolutely wonderful. That is the day that I was reminded that it is possible for two people to be in love forever and I forever wish them happiness and love and glitter.
August. I have two highlights for August, is that okay?
I'm sure it is okay because I don't really have one in October or November I don't think.
#1. On the 12th of August we, my girls and I, as a team, got our leaving cert results. The highlight wasn't the actual results, the highlight was sitting in Primrose Cottage with my girls and we were laughing and joking and just so excited to be alive. It didn't matter in that moment who got the most points or whatever, it mattered that what we were going to have to all go on separate adventures but in that moment we were just collectively a team.
#2. Definitely debs, hella good. I can't even really recall separate details other than seeing that kiss and asking them to play Gold Digger by Kanye because if you don't request Kanye than did you even really go out? I spent the night dancing with the girls who meant the most to me and I managed to stay in my shows until well after midnight. Just like a princess, except I was my own Prince Charming and have been ever since.
September. UCD, without a doubt starting UCD was the highlight of my September.
There's nothing that I can even say to describe my first month away from home and out in the big bad world. Filled with tears and laughter and embarrassing encounters and whatever else having to become a person with responsibilities entails. But I made memories and friends and yeah, great.
-October has no definitive highlights that I can really remember right now, soz-
November. The only highlight of November is losing 3lbs and making my bum all lovely and defined. Other than that there's really nothing else, but there doesn't need to be when I feel as good as I do now.
December. My favourite part of December was hands down that night out with Caítlín last week. I would write all about but as I've said before, it's not suitable for the internet :-)
No matter how sick I felt the next morning I would never want to take back the night I spent with my best friend to celebrate our first semester of university.
Obviously I know that like 2015 isn't over yet and I know that Iseabail's coming down for New Years and the dream team will be unleashed in Gorey once more but yeah.
It could have been far worse like in fairness.
Whatever x
Sunday, 20 December 2015
Thursday, 17 December 2015
waiting for my electric blanket to heat up
Hello Maeve of the future, how are you? It's your 18 year old self. Leaving this here because you're full of your own self importance and constantly want people to tell you you're great.
So, it's Thursday night, the 17th of December. Like just after half ten. This day next week will be Christmas Eve, and so that means that tomorrow next week will be Christmas Day! Ross' first, how exciting!
Semester 1 of year 1 of UCD has just been completed. Exams finished on Monday which was hella liberating and Monday night was also hella liberating too. But the content is unsuitable for the internet so I guess you'll just have to remember it some other way. I'm sure Caítlín will always be happy to indulge you in the information anyway. I'm glad you've got my back, Caítlín, always there when I need you :-) :-)
So you came home for Christmas last night. After spending a lot of the day packing, and in Burger King with Eoin (because you are both ultimately the Burger King and Queen), and also crying lots of different kinds of tears because you couldn't fit your clothes in the little boxes, you watched that really sad movie and you found the reports that your leaving cert English teacher wrote about you. You brought them with you because you were scared that maybe you weren't cut out to study English, but you didn't need them. You were just fine.
2015 was hard, not like just for you obviously, but for the people around you too. You lost your best friend to irreconcilable differences, you lost your support network, also sometimes known as Siobhan Cassidy to the big wide world and everything it has to offer and, at times, you lost little bits of yourself to sadness.
It's okay though! You. Maeve, are going into 2016 happy, healthy and excited.
There are lots of things that you are excited for and maybe I'll make a list because that seems to be a trend with me, lists make me feel organised, and I feel like maybe they are easier to read. Whatever.
1. You are excited to discover a better version of yourself in 2016. I don't know how you're going to do it like tbh, but you are. Only obviously, to start all over again in 2017 but you need to remember that it's not about the destination, it's all about the journey.
2. You are excited to make new friends. There are still so many people to discover. You need to go into every friendship with an open mind, but not always with your heart on your platonic sleeve, because you know, not everyone is willing to fall so hard, or even at all.
3. You are excited to earn that super body that you've been working so hard for. Yeah maybe you're a little chubby now, but this time next year boys will physically cry as you walk past. You need to remember this when you think you'd prefer to spend the night sitting on the sofa playing solitaire. You're only fooling yourself.
4. You're excited to discover new things about your Mum. With your amazing detective skills you've located a special link and I know that even though you're scared right now, you'll be so happy that you took the leap and make contact.
5. You are also very excited to push yourself to try new things. Join new clubs, visit new places and explore new Sims4 expansion packs.
6. Even though you shouldn't be, you're excited for the prospect of something new. It probably won't happen but if it does I think it'll be something beautiful and wonderful. Something worth writing about. But take your time, not everything is as magical as how you imagine it in your little head.
7. You are excited to blog again. You missed it. You now have all this time to do nothing so you may as well blog. You don't have to publish your posts, but save them, like little things that were important while you were young.
8. You are very excited at the prospect of publishing. Even though it might not happen this time around, you have to try. You have to try because if you don't, nobody else will. I promise that people will read it, they do already.
9. You are excited to carry every day routines from 2015 too. Whether it's gyming with Caítlín or being Eoin's 'Burger Queen', taking fast forwarded snapchat videos with Iseabail or seeing the smiling little faces of Sarah and Ross-lad as you come home on a Friday night. These things won't change, fingers crossed.
10. Most of all Maeve, you are excited about being alive, being a person that matters and having a happy and healthy 2016. You've worked v hard to get where you are and you've made v good relationships with v important people in your life. It will only get better. I promise.
And listen, if you get scared at any stage it's okay. It's okay to be scared. But it's not okay to give up. Your Dad and your Siobhan believe in you, Maeve.
And I believe in you too x
So, it's Thursday night, the 17th of December. Like just after half ten. This day next week will be Christmas Eve, and so that means that tomorrow next week will be Christmas Day! Ross' first, how exciting!
Semester 1 of year 1 of UCD has just been completed. Exams finished on Monday which was hella liberating and Monday night was also hella liberating too. But the content is unsuitable for the internet so I guess you'll just have to remember it some other way. I'm sure Caítlín will always be happy to indulge you in the information anyway. I'm glad you've got my back, Caítlín, always there when I need you :-) :-)
So you came home for Christmas last night. After spending a lot of the day packing, and in Burger King with Eoin (because you are both ultimately the Burger King and Queen), and also crying lots of different kinds of tears because you couldn't fit your clothes in the little boxes, you watched that really sad movie and you found the reports that your leaving cert English teacher wrote about you. You brought them with you because you were scared that maybe you weren't cut out to study English, but you didn't need them. You were just fine.
2015 was hard, not like just for you obviously, but for the people around you too. You lost your best friend to irreconcilable differences, you lost your support network, also sometimes known as Siobhan Cassidy to the big wide world and everything it has to offer and, at times, you lost little bits of yourself to sadness.
It's okay though! You. Maeve, are going into 2016 happy, healthy and excited.
There are lots of things that you are excited for and maybe I'll make a list because that seems to be a trend with me, lists make me feel organised, and I feel like maybe they are easier to read. Whatever.
1. You are excited to discover a better version of yourself in 2016. I don't know how you're going to do it like tbh, but you are. Only obviously, to start all over again in 2017 but you need to remember that it's not about the destination, it's all about the journey.
2. You are excited to make new friends. There are still so many people to discover. You need to go into every friendship with an open mind, but not always with your heart on your platonic sleeve, because you know, not everyone is willing to fall so hard, or even at all.
3. You are excited to earn that super body that you've been working so hard for. Yeah maybe you're a little chubby now, but this time next year boys will physically cry as you walk past. You need to remember this when you think you'd prefer to spend the night sitting on the sofa playing solitaire. You're only fooling yourself.
4. You're excited to discover new things about your Mum. With your amazing detective skills you've located a special link and I know that even though you're scared right now, you'll be so happy that you took the leap and make contact.
5. You are also very excited to push yourself to try new things. Join new clubs, visit new places and explore new Sims4 expansion packs.
6. Even though you shouldn't be, you're excited for the prospect of something new. It probably won't happen but if it does I think it'll be something beautiful and wonderful. Something worth writing about. But take your time, not everything is as magical as how you imagine it in your little head.
7. You are excited to blog again. You missed it. You now have all this time to do nothing so you may as well blog. You don't have to publish your posts, but save them, like little things that were important while you were young.
8. You are very excited at the prospect of publishing. Even though it might not happen this time around, you have to try. You have to try because if you don't, nobody else will. I promise that people will read it, they do already.
9. You are excited to carry every day routines from 2015 too. Whether it's gyming with Caítlín or being Eoin's 'Burger Queen', taking fast forwarded snapchat videos with Iseabail or seeing the smiling little faces of Sarah and Ross-lad as you come home on a Friday night. These things won't change, fingers crossed.
10. Most of all Maeve, you are excited about being alive, being a person that matters and having a happy and healthy 2016. You've worked v hard to get where you are and you've made v good relationships with v important people in your life. It will only get better. I promise.
And listen, if you get scared at any stage it's okay. It's okay to be scared. But it's not okay to give up. Your Dad and your Siobhan believe in you, Maeve.
And I believe in you too x
Thursday, 10 December 2015
Who cares about sociology anyway?
So I've decided maybe I'll begin to write again, not because I have nothing to do with my time, because I do. I'm going to write again because I love it and I miss it and when I look back in ten years time I'll be able to see just how much I enjoyed being young and that will be magic.
My first semester of university has ended; I have made friends and memories and both good and bad choices but I have also made some general discoveries that relate to being a young woman in the twenty first century. These are things that I wish someone had told me this time fifteen weeks ago.
I'm going to share them, you don't have to read them, as I said, I'm writing for me.
Here we go!
1. Nobody is going to care if you get up or if you don't. You can sleep until whatever time you want to, but in the end it is you that will suffer the consequences. Ultimately you'll be on your own with tears in your eyes watching romantic movies while you should be studying. But cramming is doable. Cramming is great.
2. Whatever you do, make sure that you watch what you're eating. You Dad isn't going to be with you to cook your meals or tell you to have two biscuits instead of three. I don't hear the words "Everything in moderation, Maeveo" everyday, and as much as I hated it back then I miss it now.
3. Sometimes it turns out that the people you adored so much throughout your childhood and teenage years turn out to be smiles on campus or 'I haven't seen you in so long' hugs in nightclubs.
But sometimes, in really special situations, you get to share your university experience with the people who you love the most in your life.
4. If it is meant for you, it won't pass you by.
This little point relates to my Iseabail, who had the craziest first semester of anyone I know in the world. But I am so glad that she is home and she is so close and she is only a no.4 to Blackrock and then a dart to the Aviva away. She is my best friend and my life line and she is always there when I need to cry over idiots. What more could a girl ask for in a best friend?
5.Make sure you make time for the people you care for from home. Whether your adventures take the form of McFlurry Monday's with a premed student or going to the gym with your home girl so that you can physically push each others limits because flat tummies and super bums don't develop themselves. These are the link to your past and are probably the best people to confide in.
6. There will be plenty of boys who take your fancy, probably too many. Many of these boys will tell you really lovely things, and paint lovely pictures and then leave you crying and picking up the pieces in your bed at 1:26am when you should really be finishing essays or studying for Christmas exams. These boys probably aren't worth it and you need to remember that it is not you who is wrong, it is them.
7. Do all your readings on time, simple.
8. Join societies, just do it, In the societies you join you will find unique people who will offer you unique friendships. It is never too late to join and experience all the lovely things that something you enjoy can offer.
9. For fuck sake, Maeve, whatever you do, don't wear your heart on your sleeve. Honestly it will just end up leaving you in lots of little pieces. You are not simply something to be walked over, you are made of stronger stuff than you imagine, and ultimately, you don't need a text message.
10. Last one, enjoy every minute of it, because the semester will actually fly by. Make the most out of every experience. First year only happens once, hopefully.
My first semester of university has ended; I have made friends and memories and both good and bad choices but I have also made some general discoveries that relate to being a young woman in the twenty first century. These are things that I wish someone had told me this time fifteen weeks ago.
I'm going to share them, you don't have to read them, as I said, I'm writing for me.
Here we go!
1. Nobody is going to care if you get up or if you don't. You can sleep until whatever time you want to, but in the end it is you that will suffer the consequences. Ultimately you'll be on your own with tears in your eyes watching romantic movies while you should be studying. But cramming is doable. Cramming is great.
2. Whatever you do, make sure that you watch what you're eating. You Dad isn't going to be with you to cook your meals or tell you to have two biscuits instead of three. I don't hear the words "Everything in moderation, Maeveo" everyday, and as much as I hated it back then I miss it now.
3. Sometimes it turns out that the people you adored so much throughout your childhood and teenage years turn out to be smiles on campus or 'I haven't seen you in so long' hugs in nightclubs.
But sometimes, in really special situations, you get to share your university experience with the people who you love the most in your life.
4. If it is meant for you, it won't pass you by.
This little point relates to my Iseabail, who had the craziest first semester of anyone I know in the world. But I am so glad that she is home and she is so close and she is only a no.4 to Blackrock and then a dart to the Aviva away. She is my best friend and my life line and she is always there when I need to cry over idiots. What more could a girl ask for in a best friend?
5.Make sure you make time for the people you care for from home. Whether your adventures take the form of McFlurry Monday's with a premed student or going to the gym with your home girl so that you can physically push each others limits because flat tummies and super bums don't develop themselves. These are the link to your past and are probably the best people to confide in.
6. There will be plenty of boys who take your fancy, probably too many. Many of these boys will tell you really lovely things, and paint lovely pictures and then leave you crying and picking up the pieces in your bed at 1:26am when you should really be finishing essays or studying for Christmas exams. These boys probably aren't worth it and you need to remember that it is not you who is wrong, it is them.
7. Do all your readings on time, simple.
8. Join societies, just do it, In the societies you join you will find unique people who will offer you unique friendships. It is never too late to join and experience all the lovely things that something you enjoy can offer.
9. For fuck sake, Maeve, whatever you do, don't wear your heart on your sleeve. Honestly it will just end up leaving you in lots of little pieces. You are not simply something to be walked over, you are made of stronger stuff than you imagine, and ultimately, you don't need a text message.
10. Last one, enjoy every minute of it, because the semester will actually fly by. Make the most out of every experience. First year only happens once, hopefully.
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